Category: Personal
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Guides, universe, God, I’m afraid of this loneliness.
But I’m looking around & nothing is happening. The walls aren’t pressing in. I’m here, and it’s okay. God, I’m scared of this drought. I’m scared I won’t ever move out of my own way. God, I’m scared I’m not good enough. God, I’m scared I’m not enough. I’m scared I’ll keep watching life pass…
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I had a phone call with my brother & i appreciate it
Life seems much simpler when you put it like this. The point is not the money, a shiny job or place. The point is always community, connection & love’s grace. The point is living fully & feeling understood – The point is not success or looking outwardly good. The point is your heart, shining bright…
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I want this somewhere permanent so here I am in impermanency
This is my room. And it’s beautiful. It’s warm and inviting just for me. I keep it comfortable, safe and clean. Outside are my plants on the balcony. Here I see my lights that gleam; a blue blanket, laid out soft and serene; frogs and cats and green green leaves; mushroom lights and words unseen.…
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The heart wants what it wants
And I’ll call it what it is: that the heart wants what it wants.I can eat my weight in logic, but the thoughts are just a block.An endless looping cycle of trusting what is notA way to hide the heart away as you beg for the right thought. The heart will listen sadly as you…
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My greatest fear
I want to do everything I want not because I’m not afraid –but because I’ve got one life and it’s mine to make. I’m so afraid that I won’t amount to anything;that I’ll never create; that no one will see that I’m so great (lol). I’m so afraid that I can’t follow through,that I can’t…
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Maybe someday I won’t want
Maybe someday I won’t want for anything And I can lay at the hearth and rest my head Maybe someday I won’t want at all -I think by then I’ll already be dead. sjs
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A lesson in trust
I just talked with my sister on the phone & remembered how the life I’ve always dreamed of is literally being manifested before my eyes. All I’ve ever dreamed of is traveling, being free, being happy and being me. I didn’t know how I would get there, but now it’s unfolding effortlessly. 🩵
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Quick thoughts while I’m conscious
I’m actually excited for my therapy session…that’s saying something. I want to keep going with Mindvalley lessons. Daily timer or reminder? Don’t pour into people who won’t pour into you. I like working at Fresh Kitchen. I think I’ll like working at my mom’s office. Things are working out for me, even when I don’t…
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Magic baby time!!
Jack and I are in the Bahamas right now. Looking out at the water and remembering… I have all the freedom in the world. I can go wherever I’d like. Do whatever feels right! I’ve always had this vision of myself traveling when I was older. Just being a free spirit and seeing the world.…
sophia josephine 