Guides, universe, God, I’m afraid of this loneliness.

But I’m looking around & nothing is happening. The walls aren’t pressing in. I’m here, and it’s okay. God, I’m scared of this drought. I’m scared I won’t ever move out of my own way. God, I’m scared I’m not good enough. God, I’m scared I’m not enough. I’m scared I’ll keep watching life pass me by. I’m scared that out of life I’ve best learned to hide.

I don’t want to disappear, not anymore. I want to be somebody in the world. I want to be known. I want to be loved. I want a love where I finally let down my guards. Where I can melt into the presence of another person’s heart. Where I can cry and see in them my true counterpart. I want a love that’s sensitive, emotional and sweet. I want a love that’s inspiring and keeps me on my feet.

What else do I want for myself?

I want a body that shines in good health. I want eyes as bright as rays of light – open and sparkling with this life. I want muscles strong & toned, supporting me. I want a back that doesn’t hurt, a chest broad and free. I want skin that’s smooth and dewy soft – that warms in the sunlight and reflects my mirth. I want to put my brain into projects that mean – something – to others & the child inside me. I want to be loved, sensitive and soft. I want my own love; and to know that I’m enough.

This and so much more is manifesting true – before my very eyes, a flower blooms 🌷