My greatest fear

I want to do everything I want not because I’m not afraid –
but because I’ve got one life and it’s mine to make.

I’m so afraid that I won’t amount to anything;
that I’ll never create; that no one will see that I’m so great (lol).

I’m so afraid that I can’t follow through,
that I can’t commit, that I’ll forever be blue.

I’m so afraid of not following what’s inside –
of shutting it out and living a “normal life”.

My greatest fear is not being me –
being trapped in a body for eternity.

I pray to you God, my spirit, the divine,
to let me be cracked open & surrender to this life.

Let me love myself in all my truth,
in all my mistakes, my sorrows and my roots.

Let me love my fears and my vices and pains,
the ways I resist and the lessons I gain.

Let me love the struggle for the way it makes me see
just how valuable it is to be me.

Let me love my life even when it’s hard.
Let me be grateful and let me be charmed

By this great ancient Earth that allows us to be

whatever feels right to you and to me

To you, my dear world, I open my arms –
throw out my chest and yell, “Bring it on!”