Today im just a girl

Today I’m just a girl

My pulse feverish and quick

Today I’m just a girl

& nothing seems to stick

No big goals or plans / just living for the day

For a spoonful of ghee and honey

For the ache to go away

Today im just a girl

Brain beat & choked of life

I have no friends

No bitter ends

Just emptiness and strife

How long will I say, « I want to be… »

How long will I tighten my binds ?

How long until I set this free

The calling in my mind

It has me in its grip

This lonesome vice of mine

The ability to live through others

To access the divine

I need no truth

No misery

Can satiate my soul

Like the yearning deep within

For something

I don’t know

-sjs